As the start of a new year draws closer, I can't say that I'm not nervous.
So many new things are going to take place-- new experiences, new people, new places
Man... I can hardly believe I only have a few more years before I'm done with college and then fully stepping into the "real world".
I'm nervous... but not afraid.
I realize that I have some growing up to do and I'm thankful for those who have helped to point it out. It was a wake up call. One that I really needed.
It made me see that every single day is full of great potential. Every PERSON is full of great potential. But it is ENTIRELY up to you of how you spend a day and how you use what's given.
Whether you choose to give or take. Whether you choose to fight or surrender. Whether you choose to love or hate. Whether you choose to ignore or listen.
It's a choice. Everything is a choice.
I don't ever want to hear anyone say "But I had no choice!" because there is ALWAYS a choice.
A choice of action. A choice of response.
I thought about ignoring people when they pointed out my mistakes and stumbling blocks... there are times that I have, but I've learned to take advice humbly and with an open mind.
Even if it's not the nicest thing to hear, there is always something I can learn.
So... I choose to listen. And to act.
I'm going to jump with both feet instead of having one foot on either side of the line.
There are times to play it safe and there are times to risk it all.
When it gets hard (and there is no doubt in my mind that it WILL be hard), I will fight with everything I am unless I know I need to let go and surrender.
I resolve to continue growing and learning because there is never an ending to it unless you choose to purposely avoid it.
I also choose to love. Not that cheesy romance stuff you see on tv or in books (even though I DO really enjoy that stuff...)
It's that love that "never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and endures every circumstance".
I want to say what I mean and mean what I say.
I want to help someone even when no one else will.
I want to stand for what is right even if everyone else choose to sit.
I know that.. despite my hopes, not everyone will accept me. Not everyone will be my friend. Not everyone will support me or stay with me but...
for those who do, I will do my best to do the same.
And for those who don't... I will do my best to treat you fairly and love you like a friend, but I also won't let myself be taken advantage of.
I may not know everything about myself, but I DO know who I want to be and I will strive for it.
I know I'm not strong... in fact, I see myself as someone weak. But I'll continue to work at becoming stronger because there's a fight worth fighting and prize worth claiming.
I'm going to run this race with everything I have until my last breath.
I hope you will too because even though it's hard, life is good.
I wish you hope, joy and truth!